I Am A Nice Person Dammit!

Ok, I did it.

I finally got drugs for the insane person I become two weeks after my period starts. It has been a long time coming.

I have always known that during certain times of the month, I am excessively irritable and over-sensitive and tired and sad but I just thought it was all part of "being a woman". In the past 12 months, I have noticed that my regular craziness has changed severely. I can actually say that it's been taken up a notch. One might even call me a lunatic during that premenstrual time of the month. (my husband has yet to verbalize that but he's probably thinking it as I write this.) I'm not like that all month mind you, just around 2 weeks after my period ends until it starts again. I can honestly say that the things that happen to my mind and body are not just a little premenstrual hormonal discomfort. I am full blown crazy complete with screaming fits and crying jags. Someone once said to me that "it's alright to lose your temper". I don't think she realizes that I'm just not losing my temper during those 14 days. What I am is a psychopath who thinks her husband is an idiot and her children are maniacal brats. Here's the catch, though. When that wonderful red flow starts, within a day I am back to what I consider "normal". As if by magic, I am in love with all around me. At peace with the world. Loving my wonderful husband and adorable children more than I could think possible.

That's when damage control begins. My husband is shell shocked by this time and is afraid to speak with me about anything for fear that my spinning head will start spewing obscenities. I have to find my children who are lurking through the halls as if on egg shells for fear that Mommie will see them and threaten them within an inch of their lives for any whim she desires.

Enter Drugs. I went to my dr and told him my woes. He said he sees this alot with women my age and that it's normal. I told him how I upped my exercise and changed my eating habits and started taking a multiple vitamin every day. I also mentioned that I had already tried 2 different herbal supplements which didn't do anything but ding my pocketbook. He said that all those things were good to try but that the thing that has gotten results for his patients was the drugs. He told me that many women came in and thanked him for saving their marriages! How could I not try them?

He said that I could take the pills everyday but he recommended only taking them for 2 weeks a month, until right before my period starts. I figured that date to be about 4 days away, so I got the prescription filled. I started taking the today. We'll see how they do. So far not so well, but since it's just the first day, I can give it a little while longer. What else do I have to do?

I'm not telling my husband that the dr gave me drugs. I want to see if he notices. I'll keep you posted.